"looking for my heart..."

there's not a rule that says i have to post a dictionary-esque post everytime.. so here's a short one... i've gotten a part time job by the way... working at this souvenir shop in the city~ the pay is kinda low in comparison to many shops here but it's AUS7/hour after all so i've got not much to complain... i slept at 1am yesterday but somehow i couldnt sleep, probably because i've been sleeping really late consecutively lately that my body is not used to it (brain: wtf is this guy doing in bed at this time, the party's just getting started *hears some dance tunes*) =( anyway, i probably got on average, 3 hours of rest... and this morning, when i headed to the bus stop, i missed my ride by a few minutes~ it's kinda a blessing in disguise cause when i arrive like 5 minutes before the time i'm supposed to be there, the boss wasnt even there yet! lol! i was thinking "hm, er... did my friend play a prank on me or something happened which i'm not aware of"...

anyway, back to the future a few 20 minutes or so, as usual, the ride to city from my place requries a 2 zone ticket/card and me, being a good natured dodgy malaysian, decided to just use the 1 zone card (it looks the same etc..) and after sometime, the bus driver suddenly stopped the bus and came to me (i was trembling like a monkey, blushing like it's ass and talking like it's bum) and asked "excuse me maite (yes, they pronounce it that way so i'll spell it that way! harumph), your bus ticket is 1 zone only and you need a 2 zone to go to the city" and i was like "oh? er.. i didnt know that... *walks to put the card and walks back*" i swear, my face was redder than the reddest um... red... er.. colour -_-

so that was 1 point for bad start of the day and sulkiness and 0 for great job... ok, now we're back to the regular pacing of the story... so i waited for 5... damn, this post is getting long again isnt it? ok, i'll just take 5 seconds from each part of stuff... anyway~ the bosses (husband and wife from singapore) were very nice people ler... they didnt scold me or such YET but i heard my friend told me that they hate to repeat what they taught etc... and i have to work tomorrow, hope i still can remember how to pull out all those displays (postcards etc..) but i did joke with the boss-man (literally) most of the time cause he was the nicer guy... um.. person~

during lunch time, i got some adrenaline rush (note to those whom called or got called by me today: you can skip this section of daily repeats)... cause the boss-man had to take care of the shop, he asked me to go buy lunch at hungry jacks, so i went, bought and was taking the tissue paper when some blardee goth-wannabe kid mumbled something to me which i didnt realize was intended for me and i just ignored it and he used his elbow to softly nudge my back and i was like "WTF!" and spun around... (notice how lame and childish that sentence sounded? i was like that at that time) and he was just gigling and walking off with his friends (1 dude+1 dudette and a pizza place... the pizza place being... that guy that nudge me's face... he was that butt ugly) without looking at me...

my mind was caught in a struggle of the universe again (as usual) "1.) should i go berserk [laruku fans take note: "YOU KNOW EVANGELION AMERICA??? GOING BERSERK??? GOING BERSERK!!!"] and just ram the drinks onto his head or 2.) imagine ramming the drinks onto his head followed by a few "wachhaaaaa wachiii's" made infamous by bruce lee, jet lee [hey you notice something, all those dudes have lee on their names.. i wont be surprised if jackie chan's real name was jackie lee] that stereotypes jumping chinese or screamy chinese of knowing kung fu~ kung foo y'all!! or 3.) walk off like the sad person i am... in humility... but at least keeping my stomach intact and my job available or 4.) sit down and cry..."... you wouldnt have to guess which option i took.. and NO it's not 4.) ok!?!??! -_-

anyhoo, on the way back, i wanted to buy coldplay's new single; "speed of sound" (released on the 23rd but the local big w at my place doesnt stock it yet) from JB HI-FI but it was already closed so i went home... and lazed around due to tiredness (mum cooked spaghetti for dinner) and um... stuffzjeitj4w09tij w4t (battery running out).. i'll just have another abrupt end here cause i gotta work tomorrow =( no time to study for exams T_T sigh~ the guilt is driving me INSANEEE! insane in ze membrane i tell youuuuuuu~ is anyone here lactose intollerant? ok, this is captain spark, over and out~ last note: i started writing songs which are abandoned less quickly lately... perhaps more inspiration? i dont know... all pop ballads~ lol.. where's the rock in me?? where have thou gone? =( most of them still has crappy melodies but it's improving imho... i have a bad songwriting habit... i usually lesser the quality of the vocal melodies when it transits from my heart to my brain T_T